Saturday, October 18, 2014
colleeb:

Me and my number 1 last night before the big show!!!! I LOVE THIS BIRTHDAY GIRL

colleeb:

Me and my number 1 last night before the big show!!!! I LOVE THIS BIRTHDAY GIRL

Wednesday, October 15, 2014

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Monday, October 13, 2014

(Source: taeshidiary)

Sunday, October 12, 2014
  • My family: Why don't you read much anymore? You used to devour books when you were younger.
  • Me: *closes laptop after reading 6th fanfic that day*
  • Me: Oh, you know... school, work.
The thing about an anxiety disorder is that you know it is stupid. You know with all your heart that it wasn’t a big deal and that it should roll off of you. But that is where the disorder kicks in; Suddenly the small thing is very big and it keeps growing in your head, flooding your chest, and trying to escape from under your skin. You know with all of your heart that you’re being ridiculous and you hate every minute of it. The fact that many people don’t recognize or have patience for your illness only makes everything worse.

Ten years of experience (via punkasspoet)

I once had a therapist tell me that having an anxiety disorder is like having a faulty alarm system wired up in your brain — instead of going off just when there’s danger (like it would for somebody without an anxiety disorder), it goes off all the time, over little things that don’t actually warrant an anxious response at all. It’s like one of those asshole smoke detectors that everyone’s dealt with at some point or another, the ones that go off whenever you turn on the oven or try to cook something on the stove — you can yell “OH MY GOD, I’M JUST BOILING WATER” all you want, but the stupid thing is going to blare on undeterred. That’s what having an anxiety disorder is like: it’s the smoke detector, and you’re the person on the ground yelling “SHUT UP, SHUT UP, THERE ISN’T ANY FUCKING FIRE.”

Under normal circumstances I don’t talk about my mental health stuff on the internet much — out of anxiety, actually, more than anything else — but I wanted to chime in here because I think this is something people really don’t understand about anxiety disorders. Friends: we know it’s irrational. We know we need to calm down, that things aren’t as bad as we think they are, that our reactions are making things worse than they need to be, that it’s all in our heads. We know. It’s what makes it all so incredibly infuriating, because in life you can just — you know, smack the smoke detector with a broom or take the batteries out or something. An anxiety disorder doesn’t work like that, though god, I wish it did; it requires years of work and active effort and (for some of us) medication to dial down our reactions, even when we know, right down to our bones, that our reactions are wrong.

If you’ve ever read that when someone is having an anxiety attack, it’s not helpful to say “Calm down” or “Stop panicking” or shit like that: this is why. We are saying that crap in our heads already, only we are saying it louder than you, and with more frustration and self-loathing, because we have been trying without success to calm down and stop panicking for the balance of our lives. 

I know it can be exasperating to deal with someone with anxiety — boy, do I. I deal with an anxious personality every waking minute of every single day, and let me tell you there are times I want to smack myself with a broom, take out my batteries, and let my whole fucking house burn down. But the thing is, if you have someone in your life with anxiety and their shit is bugging the hell out of you, you have an option at your disposal that they don’t: you can walk away. And if you’re someone who gets frustrated by other people’s anxiety, who can’t be patient, whose very nature compels them to point out that it’s not a big deal and we need to calm down and we’re making it more than it is — that’s okay, everyone has shit they can’t deal with, but use that option. Walk away. Tune it out. Don’t pile on, because that’s actually so counterproductive to the goal of getting the calm, rational person you know out from beneath their anxiety. The more you say the things we’re already thinking (this is stupid, just shut up already, calm down, this isn’t a big deal, why can’t you calm down), the more we become convinced everything in our heads is true, and the longer it takes us to shut it down. 

As always, the best way to be helpful to someone with any kind of mental illness is to ask them, ideally during a time when they are calm and in control: what can I do, what do you need, what should I avoid doing, is there anything that helps. But short of that, I can’t tell you how helpful it is to have people in my life that I know aren’t going to echo back at me the shit I’m already yelling at myself. So: try not to do that to people. That’s all we’re asking. Try not to. 

(via gyzym)

Thursday, October 2, 2014

Step 327: Sometimes, text before you call

adulting:

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This is a thoughtful thing to do for people who might be expecting bad or serious news. My family got in the habit when Grannybarb was really sick, and every time my phone rang I was terrified that it was a Serious Call.

So when we just wanted to chat, my mom and sisters and would text the other person ahead of time, so we knew that it wasn’t serious and we didn’t have to drop everything to take it/steel ourselves emotionally/get to a place where we could flip out if need be.

Sunday, September 28, 2014

beautyisfeign:

I hate how your mind thinks of something really creepy and you try to act all casual about it like “haha that would be creepy if a demon came up behind me and tried to breathe on me hahahahaha” then you go and turn every single light on and call your mom.

Saturday, September 27, 2014

desertblessingoceancurse:

when your friend comes over but all you do is sit next to each other and use the internet

true friendship

(Source: misuseofspooky)

Friday, September 26, 2014

everything-fuckable:

*buys kinky bra for looking hot in front of the mirror at 3am by yourself*

Thursday, September 25, 2014

winchesterlicious:

"what do you look for in a man"

well, another man, mostly

I read a lot of fanfiction

(Source: leftboob-enthusiast)

Wednesday, September 24, 2014

hot-topic-trash-baby:

I want to be spoiled but I also feel extremely guilty when people use money on me

(Source: spooky-hot-topic-trash-baby)

Monday, September 22, 2014

sassyasspeterhale:

But soft! what light through yonder window breaks?

It is the east, and I fucking read fanfics til four in the morning again

(Source: capt-buckybarnes)

Sunday, September 21, 2014